Writing this blog challenges me like few other ventures. My emotions battle constantly.
Some days I feel elated. Sometimes I want to quit.
When I pastored, a number of years ago, I had articles published and broadcast on radio.
So when I changed careers I set up my financial consulting practice so that once successful it would allow me freedom to follow my passions in ministry.
I wrote another blog for about a year. Then other commitments took over and I couldn’t keep it going. Frankly, I’d grown bored with it anyway.
So when those commitments subsided I spent about six months praying about and planning out this blog. Rather than focus on growing financially, as my other blog did, I wanted to focus on growing spiritually.
And what a ride.
Some days I feel euphoric. The writing flows. I receive an email thanking me. Someone leaves an encouraging comment.
Other days I feel depressed. I wonder, “Why bother? My numbers are small.”
A few nights ago I had the strangest nightmare. I dreamed I’d quit and I woke up in a panic grieving.
As I lay in bed, I prayed, “God, if this is what you want I’ll keep on until you show me otherwise.”
The flow came back again. My writing took a step forward. And I feel such an incredible peace when I write.
Paul says, “For this reason I, Paul, the prisoner of Christ Jesus for the sake of you Gentiles.” (Ephesians 3:1 NIV)
Paul writes this from a Roman prison. But I think he also writes about feeling constrained to fulfill his God given passion. He chose everyday to take a step forward. And he literally changed the world.
Following our God given passion is often more about making small decisions everyday than making the huge life changing ones.
How do you follow your God given passion?
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